today is MY DAY

Alhamdulillah ..
Aku masih membuka mata hari ini ..

Jauh disudut hati ...

Today's my 32nd birthday,
and I should be partying like every other single women would be.
I don't know what brought me to this paper, I guess I just really miss you....

Today, I should be celebrating, but instead I'm cleaning the mascara marks that followed the path of my tears down my face. Non of my friends know about you in my life .. no body are with me and tell me that I should smile and enjoy my single life, How lonely I am??
There's an aching in my heart where you used to be.
 
I turn 32 today, living without you.
Truth is, it's only my heart craving in the past. In reality, time is still going by.. Even without you.
It's hard to face it, but it's real. You're far from me .. You're not coming back to me... You're not here anymore, not in my heart anymore. Your smile is faded. I take a deep breath, clothes my eyes to make a wish, but I see your face.. I hide behind a fake smile, open my eyes.
I blow out my candles, but nothing happens. Wish you are here....

Moga Allah memperkenankan segala hajat & doaku ..
Amin..